Life feels like a film, not a very exciting film at that.

But I am but a casual observer, watching the protaginist floating in the sea that fills a void.

My every day it seems blends imperceptibly with the next, punctuated by periods of sleep and mealtimes. The children provide the reason to get up each day and like an automated Mum go through the motions, same old same old day after day..

As sure as this will pass, I'll feel like I am living my life, I'll be back inside my head, not watching from a safe distance behind the eyes.